Help

I'm calling out to the best of my ability and i keep calling out silently pleading and begging for someone to relieve me of this pain!! I just want it to vanish into thin air and to have never existed in the first place. I'm calling i'm crying out but no one ever listens its only when i'm in solitude and have given up that someone decides its time to wake and talk to me! Where is everyone when i'm crying out for help? Do they intentionally shun me? Where are you when i need help i'm so alone right now i'm crying out..... so why can't i feel you?