Crazy in love? Or crazy?

It's just something i have to do, i need to cope and move on with life again. I need to forget you and realize that without you i'm happy. I have a boyfriend and you were mine once a upon a time ago, then you hurt me for 4 months straight and you didnt even care did you? I guess i'm just trying to still heal but everytime i see you its like another hole gets ripped in my heart. So much anger floods me that my adrenaline just sky rockets and i can't even move my own feet. I can barely talk. Now so much is going on and it just makes it that much eaiser to think about you!

You lied to me so many times and stupidly i defended you, i loved you and cared about you but instead you just ripped my heart into pieces. I trusted you and what do i get in return? You didnt even really care about me did you? Did you know that i would hurt this bad? Did you plan on it?! He thinks i'm still in love with you and you know what i am! i can't stand that he's right about you! You never understood, you never will.... so why do i torture myself with this everyday and every night!

You were my world at one point and things changed, you changed or i finally woke up and realized that you were bad news. Maybe i need closure and every song i dont care how cliche it sounds but its true! i hear certain songs and i'm trapped and bound to them tourtring myself by listening to them over and over because it makes me think about how much you hurt me! It reminds that everything i've ever thought was true! I loved you and you said you loved me to but did you even really know me? Or am i just crazy?